Words

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Ada pepatah Melayu mengatakan "Kerana mulut badan binasa"
Iye..berdasarkan pengalaman hidup 23 years plus..pepatah melayu tu dah banyak kali kene kat aku..
Mostly bila kata2 tu telah dipengaruhi emosi..biasa la perempuan cepat emo kn..so, bila dh emosi...mst la nk menang kan..menegakkn pendirian yg kte rasa..tu yg berdas-das tu..
akibatnya..haaa..nama sendiri yg tercalar..hati juga tercalar..tambah2 bila tewas dlm menegakkan pe yg kta nk tegakkn..time tu rasa dh berpuluh2 setan gelak sakan kt diri sendiri..kuang ajaaaaq!!!

Sekarang zaman dunia di hujung jari..so, tgn pon boleh menjadikan badan binasa..seperti ape ek..penulisan tu mampu menyedarkan pe ntah..alaa..slalu ayat tu selalu diungkapkan dalam buku sejarah...dlm erti pendek tgn juga mmpu menggantikan mulut utk menegakkn pe yg kta rse..silap gaya dan cara..nama kte juga mmpu tercalar..

Akibat siri kecalaran nama dan hati..bkn ketercalaran ye....ter hanya termaktub pd situasi yg tidak disengajakan..haha..igt tu ye..makanya..sekarang aku amat berhati2 dalam penulisan..dalam share2...dalam like2...kalau awal2 diri diselubungi emosi..jgn taip apa2...kalau awal2 ok kemudian tetiba mula diselubungi emosi...ok follow otak stop typing..jgn degil..that it...

Itu tgn...mulut mcm mna lak..haaaahaa..ni yg payah sikit..keberkesanan mengawal mulut dan intonasi serta piching tu hanya 1%...ni among family member...if outside keberkesanan tu almost 80%..kot..bg aku susah nk kawal sbb mgkn dr kecik ak mcm ni..ckp dgn nada tgi..so ble ak ckp nada rendah..org laen ckp ak mcm ckp sendiri..org laen xdgr..lps tu bila sesuatu xkne cara nada ak terus naek..padahal ak xmarah tp org laen ckp ak marah...bagaimanakah ye ingin berkata2 dlm nada yg lemah lembut..?sebab kata2 yg lembut itu mampu mencairkan hati yg keras...terpikir gak adakah hati ak keras so kata2 ak keras..?

Muslim itu salah satu peribadinya lemah lembut..Allah sendiri Maha lemah lembut..menyukai org yg lemah lembut..ak nk jd lemah lembut gaaaaakkkk..so, ia menjadi sesuatu yg slalu berlegar2 dlm minda dan benak ak..

Taip punya taip..tetiba dari kerana mulut badan binasa jd isu lemah lembut lak kn...haaa..xpa..sbb lemah lembut la pasti kata2 dan ayat2 yg dihasilkan menjadi lembut sehingga menyentuh hati qalbu yg laen..xgiteww..hek3...maka pengakhirannya..nama terjaga hati pon terjaga..setan berasap2..hehe..

Marilah berusaha ke arah akhlak yg terpuji..ble akhlak terpuji..disokong kuat dgn ibadah yg diperintahkan..In sya Allah..non muslim akn tertarik dgn Islam..sekian..

If Tomorrow Never Comes~

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Earlier April this year, i got new experience...experience naik ambulance..time tu saket..tak tahu apa punca..balik dari career fair..dgn saket tulang belakang sampai kaki..xlunch..bila malam temperature bdn trus naek mendadak..ok fine...i got fever..first thought it was normal..penat melampau mungkin..

However, after several hour, demam disertai cirit birit...bayangkan lepas keluar toilet..take time pakai seluar..jln 10 langkah ke bilik..baring...perot start berkeroncong...and in 30 second nk g toilet lg..always be like that sampai bile rasa nk tut tut..buat xlyn...smpi xthn giler2 bru pergi toilet..berlarutan sampai 3 days..makan xyah cakap..mmg melantak bubur..bkn melantak pon just mampu makan setengah senduk je tu pon nk habeskan payah..tekak mmg perit mcm ada somthing..

At third day, red rushes came out..my mom dh risau suruh g klinik..mcm bse jmpe doc mmg kemalasan yg teramat nyata bg sakinah..tp nak baek..g jugak..after check..doc ckp suspect denggi..doc suruh g another klinik tok check darah..sempat berseloroh.."Jangan lak awk mati esok.." thanks doc ats kerisauan doc tu...

Next day, g amek darah kat klinik laen..ok..this is my first time...so, tarik nafas pjg..psikokn dri..juz relak and feel the pain..sempat gak doc tu tnye soklan cepu emas.."Nak jarum besar ke kck?" hek?? ak pon tnye la konon2 professional.." pe bezanye?" doc ckp jarum bsr sakit..jarum kck kurang saket.." ak pon gelak la...then ckp mst la nk jarum kck..haha..ntah2 saja xnk kc ak takut..After got the result, doc tu xckp pon kat ak..dia pgl doc laen..and doc laen tu iv ak..ak jwb dgn perasaan terpingga..yela..lau betol kene denggi staright jela..ni mcm nk buat drama bikin ak terpingga..then, doc laen tu habaq ak suspect denggi..lps tu kene masuk air..

Masuk air pon first time tu...boleh tahan la saketnye..xlama tu doc yg awl td soh g hospital..naek ambulance..waahh ambulance gitew...ble ambulance smpi..naek la dan bergerak menuju ke hospital..feelingnye..mak aihh ganas betol..rse nk tcampak pon ada padahal bunyi siren xdibunyikan..

Sampai hospital kene amek darah ag..ok fineee..yg ni mmg xtahan..first time gak merasa saketnye ble org yg amek darah xreti cari urat..lps tu ckp darah ak beku..then, amek darah second time bru ok..time tgu result darah tu..mcm2 ak pkr..mmg time tu ak dh pkr kalau ak mati mcm mna..yela..dri masih byk kekurangan kn..mmg menginsafkan time saket ni..then, ble result kua..doc ckp ley balik tp esknye still kne dtg amk result..

dan berlanjutan smpi lusanye..lusa tu alhamdulillah..doc ckp ak dh pulih..still bdn lemah2..mkn dh ok sikit...mmg ketara prot mmg rse xsdp sepanjang saket tu..now, sudah pulih..

Lesson yg ak dpt semasa dan selepas sakit =>Sakit penghapus dosa, bersabar ketika sakit, mati lg dekat dr kiamat, timbul kesedaran bekalan sgt sikit and membuatkan ak ingin berusaha memperbaiki amalan and menambah bekalan..sesungguhnya azab Allah sgt pedih bg org2 yg ingkar perintahNya..semoga Allah memberi kekuatan kpdku..amin..

Last but not least..sakit nk tanggal jarum masuk air tu mak aihh..smpi nk terangkat bdn ak..tu pon staf hospital buatkn...poyo je dlm cite kat tv tu cabut sndri..xdan xkua drh bgai...okaayyy...nama pon cite kn..tp itu pembohongan yg amt nyata bg ak..ak tertipu tipah..satu kebenaran telah dibongkar...hak3..

Sembang santai

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bla..bla...bla...
A: Ko plak rasa ak nie mcm mne? haaaa...
B: Ko baek...
A: Yeke baek? jujur la...
B: Ko baek..
A: Lagi..lagi..lagi...
B: Ko rajin...masak basuh pinggan sume...lepas tu ko garang...
A: Aku garang ke?
B: sikit sikit la...lepas tu ko bising/bebel...sampai sakit telinga ak...tp lau dengan kawan ko....sopan betul..tak banyak cakap..sampai aku pon pelik...bdk ni kenapa...saja ke...hahaha
A: Hahaha...ntah...ak pon xtau nape mcm tu...bla..bla...bla...


Rasa-rasa  A ni menghidap split personaliti ke? ke sebab A begitu berhati-hati dgn kwn2 nye agr kwn2nye tidak terluka dgn perangai bila bersama B? yela...A dan B...bagai air dicincang tidak akan putus..aku pon confius dgn perangai A ni...

Ma Bad Habit #2

Assalamualaikum and very gud evening everyone...
feeling presentation gitew kn..=D

Tonite i will tell my second bad habit which is i should stop it..

it is for my own good sake...

that habit is....

MELATAH..

u know what is melatah?

Melatah is an action being made spontaneously after being shocked by other people or situation intentionally or not...

haaaa ko...define in my own word...gitew..

Based on my experience la kn..

it starts intentionally actually..terikut-ikut kn..xpon rse takot sgt smpi bdn pon kc reaction yg xterjangka...

gitew la...

kalau me la kan..word yg kua if terperanjat..

'makcik ko' la yg plg kerap disebut...

if someone i know, word yg disebut kalau melatah is patoookkk..

gitew..ish2...kelakar pon ada...

me xdala kelakar sgt kn..haha

but, starting for today..

i would  like to stop saying like makcik ko if terperanjat..

nk rse mcm ala...bse je xterkejut pon...hello, terkejut sgt okay smbl tgn dibahu mata pndg atas (not cacat okay..haha)...haa..gitew la..

if xdpt nk diselamatkan..

i wanna say 'Astaghfirullahila'dzim' haaa..

ustaz in halaqah (if not mistaken) 2 minggu lepas pon dh kc advice mcm tu..hehe

bermakna ckit kn word tu right...hehe..

Then, i wanna change for my own good..

pray for me..^_~

till then..

sayonara

Ma Bad Habit!!

Assalamualaikum dan selamat pagi para pembaca sekalian..XD

I'm back to my writing world..

bajet ada org laen tunggu nk bca entry hang mcm femes blogger noo..hek.

Ma BAD HABIT...

actually byk la ma bad habit nie...org laen pon sama kn..

tp xkn nk cite sume kn...jatuh la saham kan..hehe

however, seem it to be have related with my confidence level..

so, i gonna talk bout it...

what is my ma bad habit yg ley ganggu ma confidence level ni..?

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KOPEK BIBIR KERING...

hughhh..

see..

santek x bibir dia?

santek kn..and sexy i guess...haha

it just can't help it when the skin start to dry..

haaa..mula la tangan ni...

i know...i know...

need to drink a lot...use lipbalm..

i'm working on it...haaa..

so far xthn lama..

gigih bli varselin..smpi nk tdo pon pkai tau..haaa..

just part air tu la...kne sediakan big bottle air putih kot dlm blik ni..haaa...

bkn pe..lau bibir xsihat mcm mne nk pkai lipstick kn..

nk bajet howt kn..

rse xcomplete je..i know i'm not so santek like public figure..but as long as it looks normal then it give me confident..give satisfy feeling bout ma self or can say like this.... I normaaaaalllll bebeh....mcm tu la...

so, i hope i can overcome this problem..so that i can walk n talk confidently to everyone and everywhere..

at the same time my heart scream..

HEEYY WORLD...I HAVE NORMAL LIPS ALREADY....MMUAAAXX10..

ROCK U WORLD!!!

gitewww la alkisahnye...

sekian..

 

Empty Heart (Jiwa kosong)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Yes...itu la word yang dapat menggambarkan apa yang aku rasa sekarang..

jiwa aku kosong..

no excitement..

want to feel happy tapi jiwa rasa biasa2 ajer...

i'm craving for something extraordinary unexpected fun thing...

doing crazy thing..

that is what i think i want..

but i'm not sure whether that is really really what i want..

well, sometime when we have empty heart it might have something wrong with relationship with our Creator too..

so, i do not know which one reason give me that empty heart..

Always my problem where i do not know the reason when something wrong happen to me..

Oh God, please help me..

for sake people around me too..

definitely for my sake too..

i do not want people run away from me..

just because i comfortable being silence..

at that same time i'm suffer in silence too..

i want to communicate but i feel uneasy..feel awkward..feel i force myself..

what kind of problematic i am,huh...

phewww...

so, what are solutions i should do?

-pray with full heart..

-be sensitive with everything so each time i make complain i make sound? haha..it might end with annoying huh..?

-make a joke? i'm not a good joker but i can be mengada person but i'm not brave enough to show to people..menyampah plak nanti kan..

-find more friends?

 what else???

well, maybe i can start with pray with full heart first...yup..

pray with full heart..

 then, check it out whether a month i'm still facing the same problem or not..

right..end here JIWA KOSONG

Graduation Story~

Assalamualaikum pembuka bicara..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

14th October 2012

tarikh keramat bila mana akhirnya saya dianugerahkan segulung ijazah XD

alhamdulillah saya berjaya tamatkan pengajian di universiti..

walau tidak secemerlang mana tapi alhamdulillah..

My family XD

 

 

Some of my friends =D

At this moment, tiada part time and almost 1 month at home after graduation day..
seriously sangat bosan okaayy..
No production at all
Oh Job..
I wanna Job!!

After Two Months~

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~

Its already October 2012..

where

1. There is my befday

2. There is my convocation day

3. My part time job contract was end (weehuuuu) ^______^

So, i dun want to talk about my befday and my convocation but my experience during working part time..

fuiihhh...penat..hectic..stress and many more...

plus, keje dengan tokey Cina...memang kene tunjuk rajin sentiasa giteww..

I keje as what eehh?? I pon xtau la..more prefer to sale promoter la kot..^_^

gaji? biasa2 je since mostly bdk lepasan sekolah je keje kat situ..haha..

I bajet nk keje sampai raya jela..tapi tokey tu offer sampai end of September..

I pon ok jela..since I mmg plan xmo cari keje tetap during that time so that xda la I nak kene mintak2 cuti ke..stress sebab dapat cuti sehari ke kn if dapat keje..

tp selepas 3 weeks keje gitu I dh start risau since nanti nak kene amek jubah macam mane..nak amek cuti ke sebab I mintak cuti MC pon gaji xjalan..suatu KERUGIAN ye di situ...KERUGIAN..dan KERUGIAN..sebab keje situ mmg penat even yela keje macam itu saja..Tapi, alhamdulillah...UTM bagaikan mengerti kerisauan I so tarikh amek jubah start 6hb October..then, dapatla I habeskan tempoh part time I dgn jayanye...hehehe..

Minggu Pertama Keje:

Sangat giler...Sangat Bengang..Sangat Penat..

~Mengangkat barang yg penuh di rak dari dalam ke luar kedai..bukan 1 ye..tp ada 10 gitu..

~Mengangkat bag2 yg bergantungan dr dalam kedai ke luar kedai..(ini mmg memerlukan skill jolok menjolok..kalau tangan xkuat xda muscle..habes la..tiap kali bag jatuh dr tempat gantung..dan ini la time I STRESS GILER)

~Menolak basikal2 dari dalam kedai ke luar kedai..bukan sebuah aje tp ada la 10 ke 25 buah basikal

~Cakap xserupa bikin...sorg suruh buat tu..sorg suruh buat ni...tokey nampak suruh buat benda laen...(SERABUT!!)

Minggu Kedua Keje:

Penat...Rasa nak give up..Nak berhenti keje..

~hari2 kene tunjuk rajin..xda keje pon kne sibuk2 buat keje..buat keje laju xda keje susah..buat keje lambat lagi la susah...(NASIB BADAN)

Bulan Puasa:

Mak aii...kene datang keje awal kol 9am balik mesti atas 10.30pm..

~barang yang nak kene display di luar kedai makin la bertambah..dengan barang2 gantung2 lagi..angkat rak..angkat carpet yg pelbagai rupa, bentuk & harga..langsir..penyepit & pengikat lagsir..basikal lagi..fuuiihh..penat woo..

~Letak harga barang yg baru sampai kedai..simpan barang di tingkat atas..kemas2 barang..layan customer..

Bulan Raya:

Aiii..bila la nak habes keje ni..cepat la oiii...

~layan customer..simpan barang raya...letak barang2 ganti barang2 raya macam baju sekolah..tambah bilangan bag sekolah..susun kasut sekolah dgn peralatan sekolah..

Habes bulan raya:

Bosannye...xda keje nak buat nie..sume dh cantik susuuuunnn niiiee...

29hb September 2012:

yahoooo!!! merdeka!! dh habes keje...nggeeee^_^

That was sinopsis dr perjalanan keje part time I..nk cite detail xmampu la kan..hehe..Apapun of cos ada banyak benda yg I belajar..I nampak..& I paham..

1.Jangan cepat marah. Kene terima teguran dengan hati terbuka baru rasa best keje..

2. Apa yang kita usaha itu yang kita akan dapat..xmo malas2..especially keje dengan Cina..

3. Whoever orang yg xtinggi pelajaran dr kita..kita kene anggap dia as human...mungkin ilmu & experience dia lg banyak dr kita..

3.Kita hendaklah bersyukur dapat menunaikan ibadah berbanding orang laen yg xmampu & tiada pilihan.

Setakat ni sajalah pengajaran yg dapat I kongsikan sepanjang keje part time as promoter..

I harap pekerjaan tetap I, yg paling utama dapat menunaikan ibadah dgn cukup & sempurna..yg kedua

dengan gaji yg bakal I dapat tu mampu membuatkan I merasa cukup untuk keperluan I malah dapat membantu keluarga I serta tidak membuatkan I leka dengan membazirkan pada benda yg xsepatotnye...last but not least..I jadi seorang yg lebih baek dari sebelumnya...amiinn...

Lump Sum..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~

weekend lepas I ada balik rumah...
sebab nk attend wedding budak SRC kat Kajang..
tapi ni rumah belah perempuan la...
alang2 tu boleh la spent masa dgn family...^_^

bila dh balik rumah of cos la ada kacau2 adik sendiri kan..
lepas tu tetibe ntah mcm mana boley plak adik I ckp..
I dah lama xupdate blog..
bukan xnak update..
juuuustt...malas kot..haha..sbb lmbt lau upload gmbr especially dr kamera...
I nie kurang penyabar org nye..haha..
so..selama I xupdate blog..ada beberapa la event yg I attended...

gambar atas nie time I dgn kwn I bercuti kat Pulau Tioman time cuti semester hari tu..
I pergi 3 hari mcm tu..
nie la first time I bercuti dekat Pulau..
if diberi pilihan...I mmg nk bcuti dekat Pulau lg...weeeheee...^_~

Yang ni plak..time kos I buat pertandingan Bowling...since I tahun dua..pertandingan Bowling dh jd acara tahunan kot...mmg best la bila sume batch turun berkumpul...tp tahun ni macam ramai yg xjoin since group pon terhad...

I'm so Retro!!!
tu la tema dinner yg terakhir I kat UTM nie yg dianjurkan oleh kos I..
well..dress up I simple je...bajet saving..kuang2...
event I xsuka dlm dewan tu ada tiang2 kat tengah2 tp memandangkn ni dinner yg akhir..
kte mesti la enjoykan diri..yeahhh..
mmg feel enjoy la...weeehuuuu...

and...this one...dinner again...hek3...
dinner ni lak dianjurkan oleh fakulti I..
ni kira dinner terakhir la...
it is nice dpt amek gmbr reramai penuh 1 pentas..
sume ni akn jadi kenangan...
bila kita dapat berkumpul seramai ni pon xtau dapat ke x kn..
mood mmg happy habes juga..
sbb ada org sponsor shawl..hak3..

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After all the dinners..
bile almost dekat dgn exam..
mst la BBQ nite time..
yeeheee..
last Friday...SRC ada buat BBQ nite..rse tu la pertama & kali terakhir join kot..haha..
nie pon best gak...haha..xtau la nape sume best...hehe..
n last BBQ nite lg 2 minggu....
tu khas tok kos batch I..
hopefully everything akn berjalan dgn jayanya...amiinn..

well..thats all for this entry...
wait for the next entry...
teeheeee...

Something

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~

Sejak 3 hari lepas, hati rase something..
hari ini makin terasa something itu...
I called my mom and told her my feeling..
She also said the same thing..
The truth only Allah more knowing...



Petang ini ada Test non point source..
hopefully, I can answer all the questions smoothly..
aminn...


There is one thing..
I dun know why Allah still tied myself with her...
is it really because of a man?
or there is some reason behind this..
To know her condition like that currently...
it was regretful worst situation occur between me and her..

Take a break for a while from writing plant design report

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~

TAKE A BREEEAAKKK!!!

yes...I tengah cuti mid sem break....
and cuti hanya tinggal 2 hari..hari ini and hari esok...(ikot kalendar pembelajaran la kan)
tapi I extent cuti I lagi 3 hari...muahahahaha...
bahagia rasa kan...
but..definitely u dun know what waiting for me after I step my leg into UTM...

Next day after wednesday, I have non-point source(NPS) pollution exam...waahhh..
gigih noo I bawak nota NPS balik uma...
and of course related with TAKE A BREAAAKK ni I tengah gigih buat report untuk project plant design I...ohhh my....
banyak ni haaa lubang2 nie..ngongak2....kene baca balik pape journal yg bkaitan utk tampal segala lubang2 nie...kang kene tembak dgn supervisor I...
and u know what..
25/4 ni ada presentation pasal project plant design ni...hameekk ko...
dah la tak jumpe supervisor kan naek cuti ni sbb leader I balik lambat...haha..
lepas tu next neek nye dah ada presentation...tidaaakkk....
tak tido la weeyyy....ehem3..boleh ke ak tak tido malam kan...haha..

lepas tu kan..lepas tu kan...
ada 2 projek lagi menanti...
NPS projek dgn fitokimia projek...dushhh....jerit jap...arrghhhhhhh....
perghhh...dh macam sakit mental dah gaya ak nie...haha

jom..jom...kita doa sama2...
ya Allah...Kau permudahkan lah segala urusan kami ya Allah..
sesungguhnya Kau Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Menyayangi...
Aminnn...

actually kan...I nak cite pasal holiday I kat Pulau Tioman..
tapi kan I rase kan...I rase dah tak sempat la wey...
setiap saat dirasakan begitu bermakna di kala ni...
nak keluar pergi kedai pon rase xsanggup tau...
nanti la ye...
bila I rajin and ada mood..
I titipkan dlm entry blog I ok...
ok la...
mood I dah datang balik ni nak buat plant design...
adios~

Turning Point..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~

Alhamdulillah...at last I can serve internet with open heart...for a while la kan..
since I'm not doing anything yet for my homework...
why? because I'm toooo busyyyy...busy la sangat kan...haha
the truth is lazy to think bout the homework..haha..

well, there is a reason why I act like that..
it is because my head and my heart always think about seeking a job...
it was so suddenly when i start eager to find a job after graduating...

It was started last Thursday...
my course society held an event bout career exhibition...
I planed to go to the event at Thursday with my friends..
hopefully I got strength from my friends to drop the resume..
but half hour before that I edited my resume and I can't finish it so my friends went there first..
and my friend said they has a meeting with supervisor after that..
So..it killing my hope..
I afraid to go there alone..!!
so, I slept til 2pm..and went class at 3pm..

At night, I prepared my mental and emotion and made up a strategy to brave myself go to career exhibition alone..Whatever it was I must go there..
Morning Friday, it was a cheer and beautiful day for me..i dun know why..
I went to UTMost and class...(insyaAllah..i'll tell about UTMost is about later)
about 10.30am..
I went to career exhibition, well...not many people there..
and had a talk when I stepped into the exhibition hall..
so, I heard talk till it finish and started looking around..
first booth I went is Fibertex Personal Care..
After asked several question to the representative from Fibertex..
it interested me to drop the resume..and that was the only one booth I drop the resume..

At 1.10pm, I got a call from Fibertex for interview..
in my heart..OMG ok..
and start to prepare all stuff needed from bout the company til the attire..
Luckily, there were several my other friends got a call for interview too..
it really lower my nervousness...
When I stepped into a interview room, the interview started..
It was a cool interview for me because I can feel that I try my best to sell myself..
and the environment of interview not so dull or tense..haha
after interview session, I feel that it was TURNING POINT moment for me...

why? because I afraid with interview..there were several mock interview I done but I never satisfied with it...and I hate it..I'm not confident with it..
It all started from perfect interview when I was form 1..
I can't answer the question..nooo..I answered it but the teacher not accept my answer...
it was so sad,....i can't accept that..truly...feel like my tear want to drop at that time but I hold it very hard..seriously...=,=

but, thanks to Fibertex because give me hope to not afraid anymore on interview..
and yesterday and today...I had How to Get Yourself Employed (HTGYE) course..
and it gave me extra information so I more ready for interview from on how to write the attractive resume til interview session..
and mock interview..opkos...first time my heart beat so fast and want to out from my chest..
haha...it was nice experience for me..^_^
most important, I proud with myself cause I success overcome my enemy from secondary school...
Thanks God give me strength and opportunity...^_^

*can't wait for holiday at Tioman Island for this mid sem break!! ^_^
hopefully everything go smoothly...amiiinn...

Spent Time with my Rumate~

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~

What a beautiful today in Johor when I accompanied my rumate for shopping!!
gigih temankan rumate tu even badan tak sihat...hehe
Tapi jangan percaya la kalau I cakap tak beli pape...
ofkos I did, okaaayyy..hek3 ^_^
dah lama I pendam perasaan I nie untuk shopping...
tapi I shopping barang penting jela...
stok-stok toiletteries la kan..and ada la sepasang baju yang saaaaaangat ayu...
tu pon selepas diskaun 50% and encouraged by my rumate after I said my wish..hak3..
Lama jugak la shopping sampai rehat jap dekat tutty fruiity then sambung balik shopping...hehe..

Act, this weekend juz I dengan rumate I je dekat blok..
yang laen sume dah cabut balik rumah and ada yang sampai nak balik rahsia-rahsia..
haha..motip sungguh kawan I tu...nak balik balik jela...
semester ni pulak, schedule hari isnin tak ada class..best la..
I pulak satu subjek amek laen dari geng I...class jumaat sampai kol 9 je..so, I nak balik jumaat pagi pon boleh tau..
bajet nak balik minggu depan tapi terbuat appoinment la plak pergi Harris jumaat tengah hari..ish3...how I can forget lorr!!

fyi, I sebenarnye dah ada di UTM almost sebulan kot...
and setelah penantian selama itu jua la baru dwet JPA masuk..
masyuuukk sungguh jah!! hehe
Tapi, apakan daya...I kene settlekan dulu hutang-hutang I..
baru boley pikir berjimba-jimba...
semester akhir maka banyak la angan-angan nye kan..
hopefully, I dun waste my money to something yg tak penting..amiiiinn byk2...

well...untuk entry kali nie...no picture since I segan nak amik gambar dengan rumate I..
even amek pon I serba salah nak upload...takot dia xsuka kan..
laen la kalau dengan adek I..I paksa je dia amek gmbr I or gambar dia..haha..
cakap pasal adik I, sejak maulidurrasul lagi adik I tak sehat...
sampai kene amek darah 2 3 kali...
hopefully she getting well soon and now I plak yang tak sihat...
hopefully again, I dapat sabar dengan tak sihat nie...amiiinn...

outing #3

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~

Today is Thursday..
tomorrow is Friday..
the next day is Saturday..
the next next day is Sunday..

Yes SUNDAY!!

Ya...hari kepulangan I ke UTM Sanjungan Bangsa..
Kerana Tuhan Untuk Manusia..
Bajet macam suka je kan nak balik UTM..
padahal nebes...

Cuti kali ini kejap je sebulan...
and really happy coz I dapat spent cuti nie dengan org2 tersayang...
except dengan friends je tak dapat peluang lagi...
hopefully dapat la sebelum balik UTM...

well...cuti isnin lalu tu sempena Maulidurrasul...adik I ada ajak pergi Pesta buku di PWTC..
tapi naek public transport la like train since my sis tak pernah rasa lagi naek train..
at the same time my sis lak tak sihat sampai rasa nak uweek2 gak la dalam train..
nasib baek tak terrrr je...sume kerna nak merasa punya pasal naek train..hehe

Di pesta buku tu...
I beli 3 novel karya Ramlee Awang Mursyid
9 nyawa, Fiksyen 302 dan Ranggau...
last novel I baca was Ranggau and I khatam pagi tadi..
antara 3 novel nie..Fiksyen 302 yg buat I kecut hati & perut..
sebab seraaaaaaaam lorrr...
dekat pesta buku tu boley gne kupon 1Malaysia..tp I tak guna pon since I tak amik lagi dekat fakulti...so..have to la kan gune dwet cash..huk3..tapi takpe..berbaloi2...hehe

ok...back to UTM..
sempena last semester di UTM..
I harap I akan makin tabah & sabar menghadapai dugaan..
I harap I akan jadi manusia yg lebih baek yg menyayangi org2 di sekeliling I..
I harap I more confident nak hadapi sebarang interview..(nebes nie..nebes nie..)
I harap I akan jadi seorang gadis yg more positif and ceria..
yg plg penting...
I harap I dapat jadi seorang hamba yg lbh baek kpd-Nya dr sebelumnya...
amiinnnn....

What color?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~

Sometime I wonder who am I in the eyes of my family and friends...
Am I always be there when they need me or not...


Sometime I wonder whether I be myself enough in front of my friends or not...
Am I can be accepted by them by showing my true color or not...

"Those hands who giving to others much better than those hands who accepting"
but...
I dun know what kind of things can give to people around me...
and I dun know how to show to them....


At this moment...
I'm still searching those who can show and teach me on how to show love to others..
who can accept my high pitch of voice...
who can sit silently beside me when I sad...
who I can act craziness in front of them without a shame and same goes like them..
who I can shout their name from far...
who will ask me to join do something they like...


but..
at the same time..
I wonder am I good enough for them?
Am I can give what they want like they give me like I want...?

3th day at home~

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~

Alhamdulillah...akhirnya semester 7 berjaya I habeskan..
pheww~
well...what i can conclude that I love 7th semester...
why? dun know...may be I can catch up all the subjects..
compare to last semester..OMG...really3 pressure...
this semester also had pressure..til my head wanna cracked into pieces..
but i still stay cool..
cool la sangat kn...hak3...


pictures below became evidence what I went throughout 7th semester of my study..
check it out!!!

Got accident... not my car yet my friend...
but still i was inside the car..
no injured..only car got smashed by other car~

This is my thesis...
thesis only needed 3 weeks to finished them...
the result??
no comment...haha...

and...
my day with friends ended up with ate together at TAMAN BARU UDA..
basically...only this meal give price RM5..
other than that..oopsss...opkos upper than RM5..
tapi kenyang kot...2 ayam tuuu...
hehe..

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without realize my study left 1 more semester
and I start to think where my direction afterwards

start to be a 22 years old girl...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Today~


officially become a 22 years old girl...

waahhh.....


ape yang wahh nyer?
emmm....just baru terasa 22 is not old so much....haha...
Why I say so?
because before this it's hard for me to remember my age....
always think my age is 18 something like that...
haha...
means that..time umoq 19,20,21...rasa diri always 18...
and i knew that my age increase...but..i dun know how much it already increase..
then..i feel that my age not any young anymore...
But today...22 is not hard to remember haa...haha
and 22 is still young...haha...

and....